boredom

it is amazing what you can do when you have all the free time in the world. you can do nothing. seriously nothing. ive watched tele all i wanted, online and surfed the net all i wanted..now ive just got to get my ass to the gym and work out. the weather has been miserable and bad. my head has been hurting and pounding for the past two days and did i mentioned that ive been sleeping and sleeping and sleeping so that the pounding and hurting would go away?

sigh.

i need a facial badly.
i need a full body massage.
i need to swim.
i need to work out.
i need to clean my room.
i need more money.
i need to smoke less.
i need cigarettes.
i need to laugh.
i need to cry.
i need to sneeze.
i need to see my min yang.
i need hugs and kisses.
i need cuddle.
i need much more than that.

oh well..the art of doing nothing..

rock on

the weekend. to tell you the truth i actually lost track of what day is it. didnt notice that it was actually friday or saturday or sunday or monday..doesnt seem like anyday to me cause everyday is a 'same' day hahaha. the joy of being carefree and stressfree from work. for the time being that is. the mouliu-ness will catch up pretty soon. i cant stand doing nothing for long.

anyways the weekend was a good one. i got to see my brother 'perform' at teck onn's house. its his girlfriend's birthday and he got my bro to play for the night. i was a little late by the time i got there. only few tables left with people and the far right corner there my brother was in a room barred with window grills with which overlooks the whole front yard of the house where the tables and people are. 'the prison' mark calls it. apparently, the crowd earlier on was all the aunties and uncles. in other words, boring people. people come and go, there was some technical problem with the speakers and teck onn's mom was hinting that it was abit too loud and its getting late. and so that was my bro's first gig ever out of score. at least i enjoyed the songs and i do feel that at least he got a different taste of what its like to be out of his comfort zone to perform and play. i bet he learnt a thing or two. oh and of course...absinthe from kino.

on sunday, kev, jane n i made our way to time square to see doug, falique, juan and sandra perform for the battle of the bands. had a long long tiring day. was there the whole afternoon till evening. apparently the battle of the bands had to make way for some stupid kempen budi bahasa where some chinese fellas started dancing on stage looking all so retarded, transvatite indian dance and horrible chinese singing. torturous. after a good two hours the kempen has finally ended and the battle of the bands continued. knowing how battle of the bands were years ago..ive got to say that this time i was pretty lost. i thought there would be more...'normal' bands..rather then hard metal mat rock bands. we were waiting at the sidewalk beside the stage and i swear kev, jane, doug, sandra and i were the only chinese fellas around. the rest where all malays with their big hairdo, their super tight black leather jeans and lalat sunglasses...imagine. need not say more. so after a few bands shouting 'rock tak ganas' and some shit like that, it was doug's band turn to be on stage. we heard them practicing the night before and i feel that they were good.

so the moment of truth..they did a very good job. it was almost flawless. almost. doug and the rest were pretty happy with their performance. it was a relieve to finally hear a good one after some malay 'rock tak ganas' shit. i am proud of the band. they have grown and improved alot since the last time i heard them played. good job guys =) so after waiting and walking around time square we finally decided to head back by the monorail and back to kl sentral. got a pair of black slippers as ive stupidly lost mine in pangkor, got a packet of jellys and dried plums to munch on.

so later at night, we actually head back to kl sentral to pick shane up. ive got to say..ive never seen shane that formal before in my entire life. hahaha.

had a long long tiring day..was hot, humid and not a good day either. my min yang is sick, vomitted bout seven times and worried sick bout him. been missing my min yang alot. come to think of it its been a week since hes been away at pangkor. felt like a lifetime. urgh.

another week till my min yang comes back.

pangkor babe

'im sure my babe is gonna write alot this time for her blog' so said my min yang and he was damn right. my extended birthday celebration plus vacation plus my min yang's departure for four months training in pangkor laut resort. yupses. four damn months. a beautiful secluded resort, an island on it own, far from civilisation. finally the day has arrived and he has to go. he has to leave on the 13th which is on my birthday as he has to report for work the day after. bummer.

before
on saturday, after a gooood long comfortable sleep my min yang and i took our nice sweet time to wake up, brush up and have lunch in the evening, believe it or not. we are the worse couple when it comes to waking up la hahah. my min yang went to pack his baju and stuff for pangkor and came back an hour plus later. we makaned and then went to buy our bus tickets. took a ride on the lrt to plaza rakyat which is steps away from the puduraya bus station got our tickets and then head back to bukit jalil. picked up my bottle of black label from my ex-colleague which only cost me 70 bucks and then head back home. back home i continue packing my stuff while my min yang played ps with my bro, kev n khirun. tekan tekan tekan. go to pangkor cannot play ps already ma. so i was busy packing till suddenly i heard him calling 'babe..babe' while knocking on my mom's door. he usually would not knock on my mom's door unless if its important, knowing that my mom is in the room. so i blurrly opened the door walked out wondered whats up and was greeted by a loving birthday wish and kiss. i was like 'huh? 12 o'clock already ar? oh yea hor its my birthday already' silly me =) sweet isnt he..

birthday!
i woke up the next day with numerous birthday smses from family and friends. thank you all. and as usual..the waking up part. anyways, we were late, rushed to his parents and had a quick lunch and then they dropped us at puduraya where we meet up with ameer. board the bus at 3pm and woohoo off we go. i slept most of the time in the bus while my min yang was busy playin with his new wipeout game on his psp. bout 3 hours later we reached teluk intan. the hometown of victor. we were 'awed' by the small town. wah got magistrate..wah victor's church..lol. victor picked us up and then head back to victor's house. freshen up and rested for a while. not long after victor's dad came in, wished me happy birthday and gave me an 'ang pau' for my birthday =) victor brought us out to look see - look see. theres this menara condong, the landmark of teluk intan which was our malaysian version of the leaning tower of pisa. i still dont know why it went condong. took a few pictures and then headed to fajar. thats like the only, i repeat the only shopping complex around. so the lads went to do some shopping for their stay in pangkor.

after shopping we then head to al-fresco, the only up to date looking dining restaurant in teluk intan. nice atmosphere with modern settings, feels just like kl for a while lol. the prices there is amazing and so is the presentation of the food. my chicken chop is definately worth RM 15 or more in kl with that kind of presentation but believe it or not its only RM 9! theres also cocktails, mocktails, beer of course and many other liqueur and liquor. so we were busy eating and laughing away. i was talking to my min yang when suddenly at the corner of my eye the waiter walked towards me with a birthday cake lit up and then birthday song played. i swear i went stupid for a while. haha. i was so surprised! i never expected a cake and on the cake, it says 'happy birthday babe' my min yang is the sweetest i tell you. planed it all with victor before we even arrive. oh and the cake is so so good. chocolate cake. never knew teluk intan cakes are so damn good. believe me when i say that my birthday cake can beat secret recipe's anytime. loved it! after that satisfying meal, we took a slow drive back to victor's house while admiring the 'night life' in teluk intan.

so when we got back, and of course we didn't sleep. transfered songs, installed game in poor ameer's very fastest laptop and fed some mosquitoes. well in the end we slept bout 3am and woke up 2 hours later.

pangkor here we come!
victor's dad, whoa f1 driver drove us to lumut, the nearest town to get a ferry to pangkor. the ferry ride is only about 20 minutes or so. vic, ameer n my min yang have to take another ferry which is the pangkor laut resort ferry which is only for pangkor laut resort staffs and guests to pangkor laut. before the ferry arives, a malay man approached us recomending where to stay etc. so we had a good look at the peta on the wall with all 27 resort names. i was lost then. knowing i have only 5 minutes till i board the ferry but i dont know where to stay yet. my min yang and the lads have to report for duty at 10am and board the ferry. so off i go into the ferry, listen to a few songs and reached pangkor. the jetty isnt as fancy and big as the one in langkawi. its a simple long walkway with two ferry ticket counters infront, sufficient seats and that is it. no information counters. nothing. okay this time i really went stupid for a while. dropped my bag on the floor, lit a cigarette before anything else and started thinking. a chinese elderly taxi driver talked to me and ask me where im heading to and i really dont know how to answer him. i figured might as well as him whats around. so we talked for a while, belanjaed him a cig. the only place i remember the malay man saying was horizon inn. so i asked him to take me there as the chinese man said also that it is a reasonable place and so are the numerous resorts which is also at the same row. so okay. lets go.

i went up to the van, along with another man who is dropping off at pangkor laut jetty which is halfway where im getting down. feels weird travelling alone and not knowing where ur heading too. so after 5 minutes the man went off the van and the chinese taxi man asked me again 'so where do you want to go miss?' in chinese. i was cracking my head in that particular 5 seconds and then asked him to just get me to horizon inn, teluk nipah. okay. so we went pass some other resorts which he mentioned was pricey..one or two rows of shophouses..restaurants..and then went up hill and some curvy roads and turns and then downhill and uphilll surrounded by trees and gaung (picture the roads on the way to andaman and datai but short distances) and then finally teluk nipah. while descending the last slope at the far right i saw the beach, sand..waves rushing to the shores. that sight was beautiful. in less than one minute i was in teluk nipah. its a row of many affordable resorts with souvenir shops, convinient stores and makan places. the beach is actually across the road where the shops are. so basically there isn't a private beach. i started to curse and swear at the malay guy who claims that 'oh kat balcony boleh tengok beach dah..' yea rite. there are bloody huge trees around la. so i got lost again since horizon inn is not what i expected and so i asked the taxi man to drive me around to find a suitable resort. so i stopped at pangkor bayview resort. 70 bucks per night and its the only resort there with a swimming pool. checked out the room while the taxi man waited for me. figured that this place has a pool, better then the other resorts so i said yea im taking this place. paid the taxi man, thanked him and paid for the room and checked in.

i put my bag down in my room, on the air con and on the tele and whoala hbo. thank god for astro man. well the only sucky thing is there is no line for digi. not even a single bit so i couldn't get in touch with my min yang, vic and ameer. got to a public phone and called my min yang and that is when i got some bad news. all of them actually have to start work on that day itself. right after. poor thing. they thought that all they need to do is to settle their accomodation and then they can leave. bummer. vic and ameer can only come after 5pm where as my min yang only finishes at 10pm. i looked at my watch and its barely 10.30am. okay. so ive decided to walk around to see whats around..took me less than 10 minutes to see whats around and then i head back to my room. played the psp for a while until my eyes were so so heavy then i slept. i got up bout 3 hours later just in time for a nice tanning session by the pool while listening to my favourite tracks on the psp. well at least that helped me pass time till both vic n ameer came on the bike with philip's help.

after that ive decided to walk around the beach alone to check out the scenery, to feel the sand on my feet. the beach reminds me of langkawi..the rocks on the far right corner just that i coudln't possibly go there alone to see whats there. so i walked and walked with my slippers on. and this is the silly part. the current was surprisingly strong and my toes couldn't hold on to my slippers and it went off my feet! mahai i was like a stupid fella chasing after my slippers. and the best thing is, after ive got my slippers back i wore them back again. smart right. after walking a while my slippers came off again. mahainess. this time i couldn't get them back. i only manage to get one side and the other is a good few meters away. gosh. now what. i lit up my cigarette, waited a while to see if my slippers would ever come back. no apparently it didnt. mahai. i walked back for a good few meters back to my resort while hunting for slippers my size. really reminded me when i walked bare foot in langkawi on the streets. yea..this time in pangkor. finally got slippers which fitted my feet and continue walking back to the resort and waited for ameer and vic. played psp in the lobby while waiting for them and met a cute little malay girl who was so intrigued by the psp so i let her sat on my lap while she patiently watch me play. cute la. when they arrive, they told my min yang that i had an adopted daughter lol.

so the three of us went makan..havent eaten anything since morning. we went to this corner restaurant called nipah waterfront restaurant. spotted a few mat sallehs there and decided to makan there. lol. sat down and ordered while listened to them talked about how the place is like, about my min yang's 'im not a man not yet a woman' haha, about pu-nia-ma, about needing to walk a good 4km around the resort without actually noticing it, about how beautiful the place is and so on. we were laughin so loud like we're high but we're not. vic overdose chilli padi la kut. and so they have to leave and pass the bike to my min yang who will be arriving at 11.30pm. they were contemplating hard on who shall ride the bike as the road back is a nightmare. real scary especially during the night with the hills and curves. gosh i was so so worried on how my min yang has to travel all the way here without even knowing where the place is n at that very moment i didnt even know if he could ride a bike. lol. 'i bet the first thing he's gonna say when he reach here is ooooooh my goooood'

so i went back and waited for my min yang as vic and ameer left to the jetty. and uh huh..the first thing he said was what i predicted. lol poor him. i can imagine the roads n curves n hills he has to go through in the middle of the night and not knowing exactly where to stop. brought him back to the room and talked and talked. gave him a nice massage after a hard days work till he feel asleep =)

day trip at pangkor
now did i mention that riding the bike is my only mode of transportation around in pangkor? oh yes..that darn bike. i was scared to death the last time i ride the bike. i was screaming 'mahai mafucker i'll fucking kill u wynton' the whole street when wynton gave me a ride in langkawi. not good. so knowing that we have to up and down hill and curves..boy i was scared. i have to choice but to hold on tight to my min yang and off we go. ride all the way to pekan pangkor to have lunch. the town is small..just like the size of mega mendung. half the size actually. so after eating we've decided to ride around and see whats in pangkor. so we got on the bike again, pass thru another small town. this small town is like an olden day chinese town and two minutes later we passed by pekan nelayan where the fishing jetty n boats are. next we passed by a chinese cemetery where the graveyards are all way up hill and then tempat pembuangan sampah pangkor where all the dump in pangkor goes to. smelly. we then went thru up hill, curves, trees, hutan simpanan and then finally telok dalam. mahai really dalam i tell you. theres still massive corner up hill curve, imagine genting and then continued by another steep uphill curve. i was like oh no..theres no way we can go up. the bike cant make it. so we turned back, stopped at a place where we can see the sea. nice scenery. after enjoying the scenery while smoking our cig, we then head back to our resort..yes pass the up down hills and curves again. but after the telok dalam..i got not so scared anymore. lol

so back to the room, my min yang got some rest after waking up early in the morning and i of course did my tanning my the poolside. peaceful but mahai the haze really banyak kacau la. got sun but not sunny. and after my so called tanning we went to the beach. this is my first time goin to the beach with my loved one. funny la my min yang. we had fun and then guess what went missing. my ring! mahai the waves was so strong, made me tumble and bergolek a few times. drank sea water, went thru my nose. sigh i miss my ring. the only accesory ive got for the longest time. reaching 5 years and now its gone..never to be found again. i felt that slip thru my fingers and its gone! my min yang tried looking for it but its no use la..can't even see it. oh well. we sat down in each others arms, enjoyed each other's presence and the sea breeze while feeling the waves reaching the shore.

dancing in the moonlight
not long after, vic n ameer join us right after work. we got back to the beach late evening and had fun till it turned dark. theres swings made of huge wooden plank tied way up to the huge trees. now this is the first time dipping in the sea at night. the lads had fun. like small kids lol. i laughed while watching them catching the waves, jumping around, bergolek golek lol. whn nite falls, its beautiful i tell you. we saw this blue glow in the dark bintiks appearing here and there on the sand as the sea rushes to the shore on the sand. we were like 'eh wats that' and went all over to catch whatever it is. we thought it was some glow in the dark creature. it only glows for a while and then dissapears. we tried to carefully gumpal the sand just in time so that it wouldnt get washed off again. lol. cute la. like so suaku. we brought back gumpals of sand back to the resort and did some csi investigation to see what it actually is. its actually one butir of sand but it can glow in the dark. coolness.

we went to wash ourselves up..wanting to go makan in town but ive got this urge to just dip myself in the pool instead. i ran to the pool, no one was there and not long after my min yang, vic n ameer came too. we had the whole pool to ourselves. they did their somersaults, jumps and all. boys will always be boys. we had so much fun until we forgetten that we actually had to meet up philip for dinner in town. quickly went back to shower and get changed then head to town for makan. we had a very nice and satisfying meal..no not bak kut teh nor chi kut teh lol. was bout close to twelve and so we sent ameer and vic off to the jetty. poor lads. they had a bad feeling that they just missed the last ferry back to the resort. we accompanied them while listening to some jiwang mat rock song played from the restaurant beside the jetty which definately did not help their situation. haha. so my min yang fetched me back to the resort as he may need to do a double trip to fetch thm both back to the resort as well knowing that the ferry may not come. so we hoped on the bike, went thru the yes u know wat roads..scary i tell you. you'll definately need much courage to ride thru the dark and spooky hills and curves. got back to the resort, got a shock by my min yang thinking that he left but came back to pee..thought it was some malay fella trying to be funny. but after a good 15 minutes he came back as the ferry did come and pick vic n ameer. luckily.

and so we spend the whole night in each other's arms..hugging ever so tightly knowing that it will be a while till we get to see each other again..embracing how to it feels to fall asleep in the arms of someone you love. and of course the most meaningful and sweetest thing ive ever done with someone i love.. the prayer =)

bye
it is time to leave pangkor and back to kl. to make things worse it rained in the morning. bummer. we waited till the rain stopped but then it rained again. drizzling that is. so we had no choice but to ride in the drizzle. freaking cold as the strong cold breeze brushed thru our faces but it was also fun. nothing feels better then the warmth of your loved one i tell you =) we reached the jetty and the ferry arrived not long after. sigh. time to say goodbye. at that very moment it felt like it was like a dream i had for the past few days..like it wasnt true. like i am not going back and my min yang does not have to be in pangkor for the next four months but that is the truth. we have to say goodbye. we hugged, cuddled, kissed and finally said goodbye. so i got into the ferry, put my bags beside me and travelled back to lumut where to get into the bus and travalled alone back to kl. yupses back to kl.

so here i am. back here alone knowing that someone you love if so far away. well at least i know that two of his frens are with him i am not that worried. i know that its a tough time for him and i really do pray that he'll pull through it with both love from He who is above and me =) omg i cant believe i just said that lol. test of faith i call it.

although i am not there physically always remember that i m always close to your heart. close your eyes and i'll be near. im never far from you..

leo babies

my favourite cousin of all time, cheri celebrated her birthday on the 11th at luna bar. but before that, during the day i went on a 'mini' shopping spree..well mini coz i dont have quite much to spend but i have to as i need to get my fav cuz her birthday pressie and of course i need some stuff for myself. had a good lunch, manage to find good bargains and a lovely top. it was all worth the money and thanks to my shopping partner and no it is not jane.

i basically couldn't wait for the night to arrive as i can't wait to see my favourite woman. been months seen i last saw her at aunty sand's. the rest of the gang was invited to come along but due to 'unforseen circumstances' and 'monetary issues' they couldn't make it and so it was only my min yang, my bro, kev and i who actually made it to luna bar. very happy that he can make it right after attending a family friend's wedding in malacca and i got another surprise gift =)

kev drove us there, we were late and got a little sesat along the way but arrived safely at menara pan global. so we made our way up to the 33rd floor and we were greated by the serene sight of the outdoor pool with warm lightings and cozy seatings and the beautiful city lights of kuala lumpur. i then found cheri walking out of the ladies with her signature 'oi woman!' while giving me a big hug. 'and you must be the guy' she said to my min yang with a big smile and gave him a big hug too lol. we then head upstairs, which is a more private area with a few more cozy sofa seatings and a bar. its basically like a balcony which overlooks the whole pool area. wooden floored and glass balcony with running water on the ground at the edge of the balcony. all under the moonlight. so we all hung around for a good hour, listenin to some chillout music, meet some of cheri's frens and of course my other favourite vainpot cousin, shaun.

we talked, said our hi's and then this friend, a malay guy who is i think quite high asking us if we know how to shuffle. we were like wtf? i swear i was laughing out loud. and then he said, 'all i know how to do is this la' thn he did some liquid which was pretty good. we went dong for a while looking at him. he talked to us for a while and then left. funny la. so not long after, people are starting to leave and we all decide to go to cynna where the rest of her friends are. took a slow drive to cynna and went makan. some girls were giving out freebies, gatsby hair dye (joy for my bro) ha.

got into cynna after makan, free for ladies. its rather packed and small inside and they were playing salsa and house music..which was not up to my expectation. my bro bet he can do better than that damn dj. kev n my min yang seemed to be having their own fun. making fun of some dances n stuff like that. i laughed my ass off most of the time. met hann whom i have not met also for a very very long time. i guess the last time ive seen him was almost a year ago. army boy. so i danced and laughed the night away. said our goodbyes to cheri on the way out, wished her happy birthday once again.

if you're reading this cuz, i need details ok. de-tails.

happy birthday again cuz *hugs*

done deal

i have decided to move and leave my current company. a very unorganized, chaotic place. urgh. even the thought of working there for another week makes me sick. i am stressed. to the bone. and believe me when i say that i have never been so stressed before in my working life. perhaps its just work they say but this is receiving unessary stress. i hate it when ive discovered white hair which i have never, im gonna repeat that again, never had. white hair damn it. this is what f&b does to you.

i am suppose to be doing administrative related job is my current company and marketing but it just doesnt ends there. work keeps piling in, a certain someone keeps irritating the living shit outta me, controversial staff politics keeps pouring in and for that very moment i ask myself 'what the hell am i doing here?' i dont even have a proper work space, i come to work only to find useless catalogs, magazines, used papers scattered around, left by some inconsiderate being and believe me when i saw droppings on my table. i would not even want to think further what kind of droppings are they. urgh. there was once i came to work, feeling a little semangat after ive cleared my table the night before and i totally got pissed to find my table all messed up again. let me tell you with what - box of bicardi limon, a huge bottle of dewars and a bombay sapphire on my table. this is what you won't find in a normal office i tell you. like i said, i work more hours than i should, i am doing more work than i should be and most of all i have finally realize that i can't move anywhere up the social hierachy from here. bummer.

so one fine afternoon before work i got up to my computer, click on microsoft words and typed my resignation letter. done deal. nicely put it on my so called gm's table and left it there. ive never felt so relief for such a long time. felt like someone has actually taken off a whole load off my shoulders. just the thought of not need to think and fan so much bout a very uncertain organization just makes me feel..good. pity and it has to be done.

so im leaving. ha.